When “In Sickness” Means “Bail Out”
I have spent a great deal of time over the past decade keeping this story locked away. It is one of those deeply personal traumas that feels too ugly, too raw and too profoundly unfair to simply air out. Yet the weight of it, even 10 years later, is crushing, and it has become necessary to finally put it into words. This is not simply a story about a divorce. This is an examination of what happens when life throws an impossible mountain at a person, and the people who swore to stand with him decide that carrying a shovel is too much work. This is the story of abandonment when I was already sinking.

The Perfect Storm and The Collapse
Do you know what it feels like to finally crack? It was not a single event; it was a devastating cocktail of stressors that hit simultaneously. My grandfather died, adding a layer of grief and responsibility right when I was already dealing with a new, aggressive professional challenge, a new young daughter at home, and the seismic physical and mental shift of quitting a 20-year smoking habit. Then came the sickness: the diagnosis of a thyroid disease that fundamentally changed my health. My body and mind were under a sustained siege. I was stressed, sick and desperately scrambling to adjust. I needed support. I needed a partner. I needed family.
What I received instead was a clear path to the exit. The commitment “in sickness and in health” felt like a cruel joke. As I began to truly struggle, my ex-wife did not just leave; she fled. And her family, instead of offering a moment of compassion or encouraging assistance, rallied around her decision to abandon a man who was gravely sick and in need of care. This betrayal was not confined to a marriage. It spread like poison, destroying my core relationships. The ultimate devastation was discovering my ex-wife was dating my former best friend. A man I trusted, a man who saw me at my lowest, chose to capitalize on my collapse. That kind of profound betrayal warps a person’s view of human connection forever. My own brother disowned me, removing himself entirely when I needed a family member most.

The Lingering Scar of Separation
The most unbearable and lasting injury is the alienation from my children, an ongoing trauma that defines my current reality. Ten years after the collapse, my oldest son has lived with me for approximately five years. The transfer was hairy and difficult, but it is done. Yet, hearing him not call me “Dad” is the quiet, lingering echo of that original family breakdown. He lives under my roof, but that fundamental, simple word remains unsaid. This is the real, daily consequence of the indifference shown by the family who left me.
Life together is far from easy. He and I have both had problems that brought us into contact with the police on a number of occasions. It is a constant struggle, marked by the complexities of deep emotional injury, inherited behavioral issues, and the stress of repeated conflicts with authority. We are both products of the destruction that occurred a decade ago. It is a reminder that the failure of family to anchor itself during crisis doesn’t just hurt the adults; it sets the next generation on a difficult course. The indifference shown by my ex-father-in-law, who was solely focused on taking back a possession—a boat—the moment the divorce papers were filed, acted without regard for my son’s well-being, and that legacy of neglect lives with us every day. I remember the day he was taken away, screaming, and how they simply let him scream. That sound is a scar, and it is a scar we are both carrying now. True family is revealed in the struggle.
⚓️ What Family Really Is: The Anchor of Shared Breath
The pain of abandonment strips away all the romanticized notions of kinship and reveals the absolute truth of what family must be. It is not defined by biology or a legal document; it is defined by anchorage when the sea is rough. I am, by nature, a hard lover and an intelligent person. I approach the world with a deep, clear-eyed empathy, recognizing the complexity and pain in others. This capacity to put myself in another person’s shoes—to know what it means to be broken—is precisely why the betrayal cut so deep.
In Minnesota, we understand that connection is not just a suggestion; it is the rhythm of life. It is rooted in the shared experience of the harsh winters and the intentional commitment to showing up for one another. Family is the potluck principle. When one person is too exhausted or sick to cook, others bring the food. They do not merely ask if you need help; they show up with a hot dish and a warm blanket. This is the bedrock of community: shared load, shared nourishment, no questions asked. It is the moment after the church service, over coffee and conversation, where we slow down and actually see each other. It is the intentional gathering during the holidays, recognizing that the light shines brightest when we huddle together. The church is family, and family is in the home. The home, whether physical or spiritual, is where the vital work—the making of love, support and acceptance—takes place.

This brings us to the most essential truth, the ancient wisdom that transcends geography: We all share breaths. This is the core concept of Māori philosophy, where the traditional greeting, the Hongi, involves pressing noses and foreheads to share the Hā, the very breath of life. To share breath means to understand that when one person struggles, their breath is shallow, their life force diminished. The true measure of family is how you respond to that.
Family does not bail. When someone is sick, confused or “out of sorts,” family does not run for the hills. They do not view a temporary illness or a period of mental strain as a reason to terminate the covenant. They recognize the shared vulnerability of the human condition. A hard lover does not just offer sympathy; he offers solutions. He helps you find the doctor, drives you to the appointments and sits with you in the quiet moments of despair. True family embodies the belief that the home, the relationship, is where love is made through difficult, persistent effort. Betrayal is the act of denying that shared breath, of deciding that one person’s oxygen is too valuable to share with the struggling person next to them. The lesson burned into me is this: Family is the people who stand with you in the crucible. They are the ones who reflect your own intelligence and empathy back at you, acknowledging that we are all just a moment away from needing the same grace. They are your anchor. They are your shared breath.






















